Kiss me Kiss ME Good

Kiss Me Good!!'

Forget the Money...I want the pretty candy face and body every time!!!

God I love you and Lord knows I can't quit you...

You have ruined me for everyone else!!!

Some Love Affairs

Just were never meant to be more than a discovery of one's self!

Holy Cowhide Y'all

Its was a duffel bag full of drama last week.

I had a jealous wife hunt me down on Facebook.

I had one of my best friends leave his husband.

My baby boy is going off to train in bullet wound trauma.

I think the jealous wife thing has been squashed..let's hope so!!

My friend is going back and reconciling with his partner.

And my baby boy has his new gaming computer to look forward to when he gets home.

And I...had no drama!!

I had a nice weekend in the country with someone.

I got an extra surprise in my bank account thanks to the refund department at school.

And I have just been inducted into Sigma Alpha Pi. The national leadership honor society.

Whewwww....

What a whirl wind of activity surrounding me.

But I am kicking ass in the life department!!!

I love me job. More importantly I love how I get to bitch about my job when secretly..its pretty awesome!!

I love school and happy knowing I am one year closer to my law school degree!!

I love the fact that I have reconciled to the fact that I love being single.

I am not going to settle down.

I like weekend boyfriends to keep me company but my goal is to end up like Auntie Mame.

If you have not seen the movie...you should watch it!! I prefer the remake as opposed to the Lucille Ball version.

An older woman surrounded by drama from other people, meanwhile happy as a lark just being her fabulous self.

That is who I am...

A Blonde happy in her skin!!!

I Am Going Back to the Start

and so will you gaby boy..I love you and you will find your way!!

The Blonde promises!!

Where do I live?

Umm..a bit of sarcasm here...

Let me google map it for you!!

Honestly, its none of your business.

I was done with Kito awhile ago. You are just getting to me now?!

Let me tell you something..

When a man gets sloppy in his dating around his wife, he is ready to leave her.

If your trying to make me a pawn in the separation of a marriage, think again.

I am in a 'no fault state' and I am protected by the law.

My moral obligation is to no one since I am not married, nor would I ever cheat on anyone I marry...and if they cheat on me...

than I am not doing something right as a wife and I will fix it.

That is what communication and love is all about.

AshlyMadison.com promotes cheating and I for one think its horrible. I would never cheat but I am single and I am free to see whomever I choose.

Maybe women will stop thinking about the 'Gloria Steinem' effect and find out, they can't have it all.

Take care of your man and your man will be faithful.

As far as Kito, he was a friend...that is all.

I moved on long ago.

But...
I do have to say, God has away of pushing me in one direction and keeping me adjusted to a true life.

I found a wonderful man and although he is a little to quick to love, he came out of no where as a great surprise.

I am staying true to my path. I really do believe our lives have been already written before we were born and the movie "Adjustment Bureau" kind of solidified that fact for me.

I keep getting harsh adjustments and now that I am following in the path I should have taken years ago...

Life is really falling into place for the Blonde!!!

Fall Out Boy

Damn right...good rock in my misery!!!

The Way You Hurt me

Feed my Fish!!!

Hollywood

Y'

Bring Back Collective Soul!!

Chet Baker

The Blonde is beyond stunned by his music!!

An Almost Ditch

I almost ditched a date tonight. I had it in my mind that blind dating is going to serve up nothing more than a dead end soup with annoyance for crackers.

But...I was wrong!!

Recently I have found it smart to expect the worst and never be disappointed. But I expect the worse so much that I almost ditched this date.

And to my surprise he was sweet, funny, cute in a Tom Arnold sort of way...and I actually had a great time.

And to think I almost missed out on this one because of all the ones before that turned out to be wet sprockets.

I think this might actually be fun for a change.

I think this is a positive step in walking away from the last of the unavailable men.

Who?

Augusto!

I can't kick the Augusto habit unless I have someone new to focus my attention on.

This one might just be the one to finally pull me toward a real relationship.

Its time.

I have been kicking it back with the wrong men for so long. I am tired, bored, and ready for something real..

Who knows?

Not me, but won't it be fun to see what unfolds?

For the first time, I am really excited about someone.

In the mean time, I will still expect the worst...

(he does have really small feet)

but from now on...


The Blonde will hold out for the best!!

CindaBlondarella

...wakes up every morning to her geriatric cat and his crap on the outside of his litter box.

I clean and scrub the floor, brush the litter from his fur, and feed him knowing his time to lay down for good is less than a while away.

I then go outside and feed the ghetto cats that came from the street and a builder mart parking lot. They are much more hardier than the glamorous puss known as Goose and will last years longer.

I than make my coffee in the morning and get to the phone and begin work.

In between phone calls and emails I study philosophy, ethics, and literature.

Its a good semester. I like my classes.

I am in the midst of writing a new essay for UT Austin.

Although I got in to all the schools I applied to, I could not-in the end-afford any of them.

And they were a little farther away than I want to be from my son, who is being deployed to Afghanistan in November.

All the while, I was holding out hope of meeting someone to be a shoulder I could lean on but the bullshit has me so depressed, I am beyond tears.

Liars and cynics is all I seem to run into these days and with what is on my plate, I have little patience for any of them.

Its OK, I am stubborn and it will take some time for me to kill this hope of love and commitment. I can't turn it off in a day and I know that.

The hope of love is hard to kill and the fear of my son going off to war is beyond any sadness i could have imagined.

I beg and pray to God that he will come home. He has to come back home. There is no other option.

God has to bring him home safe to me.


I am no Cinderella story and I don't feel I am even a Paul Harvey story, waiting to happen, any more. But I don;t deserve this much heartache.

I never did anything to deserve this life.

This is called depression, and it hits me every once in awhile but it will go away and even when I am sad I know I need to take care of those less fortunate than me; so I take my Jimmy Choo shoe money and feed the Bambis, the possums, the raccoons, and the stray animals that do not need to suffer as long as I am around.

And I get the great pleasure of giving my son anything of the small things I can do for him. I just wish I could have done more and then he might not have had to go off to war.

Its all I have to hold on to...

That is enough to get the Blonde up every day!!

I Am Doomed

Baha Bahaaaa

The Lone Star Suck

Some things do not change...even if you are undead. It is true today as it was fucking in 2011 when I first wrote this.

And before I undied.

I am doomed to be alone unless I find another way to find a date.

Where am I supposed to drum up viable dating options?

The online dating site is nothing but a plethora of liars, losers, and deadbeats who have nothing better to do during their bored time at work.

I have no choice but to join gym.

I have to find the right gym.

Last one I joined was in Houston and it was in the gay zone of town.

Lesbians had some fun in the steam room while I got completely grossed out.

Texas men suck..no doubt about it...this southern girl can not do the south western bullshit.

I am going to die...

Please, please someone from a real world come save me.

The Blonde needs you!!


I love finding my diary from when I was alive. Makes me feel fucking awesome for being undead!

Men suck but now I can kill them.

The blonde chants Hoorah dead dicks!!!

F#^*&ing Blonde Moments

I totally missed my flight. I thought I was leaving Friday and the flight was Thursday. I did not find out until my friend called from the SLC airport to ask where the hell was I.

"I am packing my bags and getting ready." I replied

"Uh, Your flight was for today Blondie."

"Hole Shiat!! No way!!!"

Crap,

Hold on,

Shit,
Let me call you back

I will try and get another flight...

hang up

"hello Airline, what do I do to catch a later flight?"

"oh no problem, just pay $450 in difference charge."

"Uh yeah..not happening...what else can I do?"

Rebook for later flight times..

Way later...

I CALL EXPEDIA

GET 3RD WORLD COUNTRY SPEAKING GUY

KEEPS BOOKING THE EXPENSIVE TIME FRAME

Dude, I am trying to book cheap flights.

OK..hideously annoyed now.

Hang up

Go on Frontier to find cheap flights

Call back Expedia

Get english first language dude

AWESOME!!

RE-Book the flight for $50 extra

Done

PANIC DIVERTED

next week I am going to SLC..

DO NOT LET ME FORGET!!


As much as I hated Frontier for the Aspen trip...

I am actually grateful they made it up this time!!

Your alright, Frontier.

Just don't bump my ass for an over booked flight!!


The Blonde believes in second chances!!!

If I could Re-Spence

I would have gone home with you.



The Blonde has you as a regret!!

Credit Clean Up

So I found this killer site that helps you clean up credit faux pas on your own. Its free and fabulous.

Creditinfocenter.com

This site makes me feel so much better about my life crisis. I am now in control of trying to repair credit from my divorce. I read important information about what to do and what not to do.

They even provide legal letters to send to collection agencies that bought old debt and inflated the debt or have no right to the debt since the government paid off the original debt to the original creditor.

Its scarey to think that you are helpless to do anything in regards to bad debt but I now know, thanks to this site, that I am not helpless and I can renew my life and my credit.

You have a right to get a credit report from any of the three major agencies for free.

You have a lot of rights the creditors don't want you to know about.

This site will help you with everything.

I really don't want a co-signor for my new flat. It is important I do this on my own, and now I know I can.

It may take a few months but while i wait to clean up credit I have the financial ability to pay for a new paint job for my car.

I will feel so much better about myself driving a jaguar that does not look like it went through a war zone. I do feel people look down on me because of my car and my live-in situation. I try not to car but i do get down a bit about it.

By fixing my car, cleaning my credit and eventually finding my own place will just be a bonus to my new start in life. I waited so long to get over the fear of trying again, that these are great little steps to build back my confidence.

I feel really great having a job and going to school. I don't need a man. i know this. I can do this on my own.

And that makes me feel super great about me.

The Blonde is almost like new!!

REJECTED

So my first attempt at renting an apartment ended up in a flat out rejection.

I have the income but my credit is still wiggy from medical bills and when I had that little trouble called divorce way back when.

I have two more years to wait out the bed credit left behind from divorce and the predatory lending practices when I desperately tried to refinance the house afterward.

I am not paying these fees especially when they should have been paid when the house rolled over to a new owner and the bank paid the old bank off.

If I paid these fees now, the bad credit remains for another 7 years. If I leave the charge offs alone, by federal law they have to be taken off after 7 years.

I have two years before the slate is wiped clean and until then, I will have to snuggy up with a co-signor if I want a flat.

This is just another small bump in the road, although with the accumulated bumps..its starting not to feel like a fun ride in life.

I will look for another place and in the meantime, I have another month of savings.

The Blonde is used to Nos!

To Lie or Not to Lie

That is the ethics question of the day!

I am on the cusp of my ethics class and I find the area is very grey. Not something I am used to or even like. I like a clear black and white color of vivid truths.

Today, I applied for an apartment and I am sure if I checked off all the little yes boxes, they would not question it and let me in.

But stupid me, questioned my ethics and I could not in good conscience lie about a little thing like credit.

I come out on the short end of the stick with credit. All my immediate bills are dead on but the lingering divorce credit is not something I can easily clean up.

I am running on fate these days and if its meant to be, than the apartment will be mine with a clear conscience or it wont be mine.

Its not like I found the holy grail of rent control flats in Austin. I just found a superb location and a workable flat; of course I will have to forfeit my deposit in favor of new lighting fixtures, new cabinetry, and definitely will have to upgrade the tile and sink in the luie...

I have a few that are willing to co-sign but I want this on my own terms.

If I don't get it,..my jag is getting a body resurrection.

Of course I went out with Augusto and he immediately told me I should have lied. The first application is a test and I should have just checked all the marks.

He is probably right. After all, he is a lot further along in life than I am and the sad truth is...honesty will kick you in the ass every time.

I am trying to be a better liar but its a little harder than I thought.

I really must learn that its the norm to throw morality out the window to get what you want.

If I keep that in mind...

The Blonde might end up as president!!

Ladies and Gents

Bonnie Tyler

Bow your heads...



Blonde Ex gen's have rockin DNA!!!

I Just Want To Do My Job

Why can't people be nice?

Why can't people, especially women, in lower positions just do their work without trying to build animosity toward others to hide their inferior work ethic?

Every where I work, there is always that one person that just has to make life miserable for everyone.

I became a supervisor which apparently means not supervising; it means taking on the responsibility for the shit that comes about when others do not play a fair game at work.

Its one thing if the job afforded me a new paint job on my car and nice digs in a nice area of town; but this job barely affords me a one bedroom flat in nowhere ville.

Its funny, i thought working from my house, alone, would afford me the ability to do my job and not have to deal with assholes but unfortunately...NO!

Somehow, someone I never met accept through emails has found a way to cost me a days commission because I have to deal with cut and pasting complaints from clients into a spreadsheet for the Director.

I changed my font to a pretty pink and use smiley emicons now when I ask my employees to do something, to make sure it comes across as sweet and not too directive.

I follow up my emails with positive affirmations to the employees which I do not mind doing for those that are worth the emicon.

I find it funny that adults respond to pink cursive and blushing emicons instead of professional directives in black straight fonts.

We have become such a ridiculous society in business, no wonder we are in a recession and our jobs are outsourced to other countries.

Americans are spoiled, lazy, and passive aggressive in their daily work life.

They pass the buck when they fail, they piss the day away on facebook, and when the shit hits the fan because someone didn't follow through, they spend a mountain of time finding a target to use as a smoke screen.

I actually had an employee spend 4 hours sending my emails to management in regards to hurting her feelings.

You know what those emails said?

"Please correct this situation immediately and send the shipment overnight if you have to. I want it done tonight."


Really?

What about my feelings when the client bit off part of my ass when the company failed to deliver 4 times in a row...way before I took the position?

Did I cry to the boss? NO!!

I tried to correct the situation and for that I was penalized.

Eventually, I will figure out how to slack off and not care about duties at work like the rest of the 'gang'...

And if someone wants an apology from me because I demanded they do their job properly...

They better get a coat cause it gets pretty darn cold when hell freezes over!!

Wave Run Fun

So after apartment hunting and getting a little down on the prospects that I may have to keep down grading my digs to afford the lease, I blew off steam playing on the wave runner with Augusto.

I know I said i would walk away from Augusto, the Captain, and Raine...and I did to all of them but Augusto has always been there when I really needed him and unfortunately I am a woman that will always need something from her man.

and he is totally OK with helping me and taking care of me, even when the chips are down.

He is a good friend not a fair weathered one and for that I will let him stick around. Any man that says he will help me secure an apartment if my credit fails me is someone who really cares about me. The fact that he trusts me enough to know I would never abuse his credit and pay my bills on time is something really special to me. Of course, he would be on the lease and that makes him privy to all my antiques if I ever crap on him, with the rent.

We totally laughed about that one.

I can't say that about any of these other guys that wish to be my friend. They are only my friend when they are bored and looking for some fun.

Where are they when I need some serious hugging?

I won't fully commit to Augusto since he is already spoken for and I am not stupid enough to piss my personal love away on a man I can't totally have but for now, I need his love and I need to love on someone.

And on the superficial level, Damn do we look good together in the jeep and on the wave runner?

We laugh and have so much fun...We check out guys and chicks and play jealous but we are super totally cool with each other looking at other prospects.

Its fun and keeps things real and alive.

Its going on 7 years now and one day I hope to have an unattached man for myself that feels like a new date every day...

I know Augusto has trouble at home and is unhappy and if it were not for me his life would be unbearable. I am not always happy with that scenario but he is my best friend and if I help him keep his family together...

than some good is coming from all of this.

Its not an optimal situation but I am slowly looking at reviewing how love is and its not black and white...commitment from the heart is better than out of duty.

Raine could have had the same thing from me but after 7 years and it never progressing past a few days, a couple of months of drunken fun in NY..

What the hell is the point?

Having to work out a deal to get a pair of boots as a gift-even though it was my deal-is not what I call love.


The Blonde makes her the rules!!

Apartment Hunting

Why in the world would rental prices change on a daily basis?

I went apartment hunting yesterday and found that it is worse than shopping for a car. Some of these leasing agents just wreak of sleeze. And they were at nice properties.

Its funny you are quoted the rent and when you agree with the price...then they start adding on the sur charges like valet garbage, upgrade for faux wood floors, upgrade rate for first or second floor rentals.

Its hot in Texas and renting a top floor means extra in air conditioning, not to mention I used to live in a 3 story townhouse and the 3 flight walk up and down never did much to keep me tone, so i do not see any benefit to renting high up.

There is an extra charge to have a view other than the parking lot. To look at trees out your bedroom window...you have to pay more.

If course none of these fees are listed, they just are quoted and those fees and rental rates keep flipping around like a ticker on the stock market floor.

Its enough to make my blonde hair grow tediously gray...

There are application fees, pet deposits, administration fees and an application that is only a few pages short of mortgage.

You need 3 times the income for rent and you have to be credit worthy or additional deposits are incurred.

Geez!!!

The Blonde is not a fan of lease looks!

DESPORADO

This song's meaning is not for the public!!!

Some songs don't get you through things..some songs just make great endings...

Some days, the Blonde wishes she never woke up!

Learning To Walk Again

A million miles away
Your signal in the distance
To whom it may concern
I think I lost my way
Getting good at starting over
Every time that I return

I'm learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?
I'm learning to talk again
Can't you see I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?

Do you remember the days
We built these paper mountains
And sat and watched them burn
I think I found my place
Can't you feel it growing stronger
Little conqueror

I'm learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?
I'm learning to talk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?

Now
For the very first time
Don't you pay no mind
Set me free again
You keep alive a moment at a time
But still inside a whisper to a liar
To sacrifice but knowing to survive
The first to find another state of mind
I'm on my knees, I'm waiting for a sign
Forever, whenever
I never wanna die
I never wanna die
I never wanna die
I'm on my knees
I never wanna die
I'm dancing on my grave
I'm Running through the fire
Forever, whatever
I Never wanna die
I Never wanna leave
I'll Never say goodbye
Forever, whatever
Forever, Whatever

I'm learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?
I'm learning to talk again
Can't you see I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?

I'm learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
I'm learning to talk again
Can't you see I've waited long enough

Baby steps for the Blonde!!

I Want More

Because the Blonde deserves more!!

Slacker Studies

Work was a bit of a disaster today. Since I work from a virtual office, I do not have the luxury of standing around the office cooler to bash my co-workers but even if I was using an office in the company...the notion of drumming up trumped up charges against someone to save my own inadequacies would never happen.

I don't have inadequacies!

I have only been with the company for a month and I understand there is a settling in time where things might go a bit hay wire.

I have learned that not to over achieve at my job.

I need to slack back and enjoy the paycheck without making too many ripples.

From now on, I am going to take that advice and chill.

As far as the rest of my life is going..its not going very far...just up the road

I fell short of funds for the unvisited I applied to and must wait for spring. Meanwhile though I am moving into a new place.

rent in Austin is super high compared to what I can get with a downtown Dallas view in D-town but at least I don;t have to move very far.

I didn't get the amount I was hoping in grants and scholarships..I was going to use the money for back up rent just in case something happens to the new job.

I was hoping to have my car painted...

I was hoping to do a lot of things but fate has something else in stored for me...

I really hope I can move further away from my fear of losing everything and reach my goal of finding the perfect home and finishing law school.

I am hoping, hoping, hoping....

Hope is all the Blonde has right now!

My Ex Un-Boyfriend

OK, listen up!!!

I supplied my blog's password to an ex lover..I never meant anything to him other than a good time to keep him in line with is proper rich girlfriend..

No, its not Augusto..who, BTW, I have done the same thing with him for 6+ years..

I think it would be great to understand their side..

My blog is one sided and I hate one sided bullshit...

Knock yourself out Raine...

Rules:

No real names

No real dates

Only write what you feel, not wht you think is true!

and don't f#$@ with my music videos!!

other than that..

The Blonde welcomes Raine to the dance!!!

Baby Boo

All manned up now...How could I not be proud of you?

Hey, Burt-all-not-of you...Remember when you said you didn't think my son had the guts...well, obviously you were projecting!!

Boo Ya...douche!!!

My kid ROCKS!!!





Get home Baby Boy!!

I Want More

Give it Up for Young the Giant!!

The Blonde wants more too!!

Music is My Way, What is yours?

Let's let it go and get gone!!

Big Fat No On Baylor

Merit scholarships only go up to $5000 for transfer students, even with a 3.5 or higher. So that means I would have to pay easy installments of $1000 a month in order to make up the difference from my scholarship and loans.

That $1000 does not cover books or housing or food. If I am going to fork over an extra grand of bill a month, I rather not be in the middle of Waco, where the youth leave and the mentally ill go to die in the surrounding facilities.

Waco was a depressing thought of a town, I really thought they would want to entice me with a little extra just for living in the barrios of Texas.


So, its a waiting game with SMU and working on fall back plan which will probably incude another semester at community college while I wait to here from schools that are less expensive and offer Spring registration.

Little hitches in my education groove is fine...its not stopping me...I will get that law degree...

Someday soon

The Blonde is just lean on school funding!

I have A Screenplay

It starts with finding a non-descriptive watch..its digital with magnifying lens. Non-descriptive back suggesting a cheap watch but...


The weight...

the weight of time

on this piece is undeniable...

and if I were to put it on my wrist

and click the clasp...

tick, tock

My son is off to Afghanistan,,,

tick, tock....

I signed the back of my license to be a donor...

tick, tock...

tick, tock....

Why did this wrist watch end up in a place that no wrist watch should be...

and why do I feel comforted by the weight of its band?

tick, tock....


The Blonde used to find time obsolete!!!

Teet Tot, teet Tot

I am on a teeter totter with Baylor at one end and SMU at the other.

Baylor came in a little too low on their transfer scholarship and apparently, I am not eligible for the merit scholarships-not because of grades- but because I didn't just jet out of high school.

SMU, I had a little issue with my name not matching social security so i had to fix my driver's license to match my SSC...so i am back to my maiden name

Sort of...

My name was spelled wrong on the birth certificate and that is now what I am going by. Still doesn't match my social security name but its only off by one letter..

Its nice to have a new name, new hair do, and eventually a new flat.

Whether that is going to be in Dallas or Waco, its up in the air until I receive my award package from SMU.

I prefer Dallas, only because an all university town is not going to be able to offer much to me in the form of a life outside school and work.

Waco is charging premium prices for their living quarters because they can get away with screwing the students. The only nice places to live have such an exorbitant amount of rent, you could live in a high rise in downtown Dallas -with a view- for the same price..its super ridiculous.

The rest of the area around Waco is just a manifestation of hideousness...When Section 8 is OK on the rental menu..that is going a little too ghetto for me.

Pray with the Blonde and Rick Perry for a better future in Dallas!

New Do

The Blonde went pixie!!

Rob Thomas

He writes about me..even though he's never met me...which makes me know, I am ot the only one in the world.

You can't Count On me

But I could never count on you!!




The Blonde is Even Steven!

When the World is at Your Feet

but your standing on thin ice..always remember to dance..displace that weight and dance...idiot!


The Blonde can be an idiot but loveable all the same!!!

Furry Walls

the Blonde has had some Jeffrey Moments!!

Goldie Locks Chopped Off

I chopped my golden locks down to a pixie hair style and I thought I might cry afterward but really I did not shed one tear for my hair.

I am changing as a person on the inside and I am trying to be taken seriously as a woman. My long hair was more a fantasy for men and its getting in the way of me being taken seriously as someone that should be loved and cherished and committed to.

I do not want to be the fantasy girl any more.

Quite frankly, I don't want to be anyone's girl anymore.

My birthday is Sunday and I am moving on in a positive direction with my life.

I never really receive the respect I deserve from family, and that was reflected in the men I dated; because unless you have a husband and a house, there is something not worth respecting...I guess is there mentality.

Its not mine but I have learned it will not change and like friends who perceive me to be what I was a long time ago aren't worth keeping. I have to come to the same conclusion with family members who have not honored me as a Mother and grown woman.

While I have my one day a month where I can be a total biatch do to chemical imbalances from PMS and with a little wine I can be out of hand but that is only out of response to the frustrations I have with the actions of some of my family members.

I will be moving next month and I know I wont bee visited by my son and I realize he has a life and it makes me sad that I will be alone. Its a single Mother's sadness that no one in my family can or will try to understand.

When you have no one but your child and he is growing apart from you..its sad...and even more debilitating when my own parents have fostered alienation among family with gossip and talk behind my back.

I know one day, things will be different. When I have regained my position in society with a home, money and a career.

I should have never let him stay with my parents. I thought they loved me but their actions proved far from otherwise when it concerned me as a Mother.

After all, what kind of Father would threaten his daughter and say he will take me to court for being an unfit Mother if I tried to get my son back.

I can't change the past but I was never an unfit Mother, just a broke one. And I loved my son enough to give him what I thought would be a better home at my parents while I worked on finding my place in this world.

Biggest mistake of my life and I will have to forgive myself and move on but it would have been nice to have support from family instead of bashing me and talking behind my back.

One day...

I hope my son will get to see me for me and not what my family has made me out to be.

The Blonde is slowly letting go of the past!!

No Apology Needed

Some times right takes awhile to show up!!

I Am finding My Place

You can't see my bruises but they are below the skin, just behind the heart and I am trying really hard not to let the scars harden everything but I am afraid it may be lost...

Its A Long Road

Love requests Tonight

Who can;t realte to this song?

The Blonde knows all to well!!

I would do Anyhting For love

The Blonde wouldn't cross the street for it now but maybe one day!!

Maybe...

Got to keep the faith y'all!!

Or you die!

Pretty pretty Please

Fuck Everyone who needs perfection!!

We are fucking perfect, even with a shit mobile jag and storage full of past shit!!!

I am perfect!!

An fuck you big sis!!

I am going to curse, so get over it and your perfect fucked up self!!

The Blonde is over judgement!!

Nigerian Dumbass

...or maybe he was Jamaican, the accents are similar but the douche factor is the same and i could give a flying fecal part for these rampant little criminal master minds that have no hope of pulling anything off other than crank calls.

Apparently, their are enough idiots in the US that these scam scourge feel they can be profitable. I don;t know who is selling them the elderly contact information but I am going to put Wal-Mart behind this little disgusting act.

The idiot called from an unblocked number asking if my Mother shops at Wal-Mart and said she won a cash award.

She handed me the phone and I said ni my very nice 'hello kitty' voice, "What's the scam?"

The dude hung up.

Shocker!!

Next, the call came from a blocked number and I kept answering and they kept hanging up.

So they called one last time and I did not hang up. I left the phone locked on there call placed the phone down on the counter so it would make that irritating piercing noise for some reason.

Its a fun glitch in the phone when you have a crank call from a crack head.

Anyhoo,

They went to chapter two fo the most idiot scam artists in the world and attempted the following little diddy for us:

"Hello, I am kar amba Abu and I am CEO of the Nigerian bank Company. We have $2.5 million of your funds locked in transit and we need blah, blah, blah....."

Turnip trucks a plenty but not in this neck off the hills.

My Mother turning this into a major drama, I had to deal with it.

Always a lady, I gave a polite...

"You Nigerian Fuck!!"

...of which he responded by redialing my parents number over and over. Always hanging up when I was trying to give him more of my pleasantries. ]

Quite rude if you ask me!!!


Anyhoo, nipped it in the butt quickly..I couldn't play anymore with the dead head, i had work to get to.


*77 took care of that little douche's temper tantrum.

Go rage on someone in the boondocks dickhead.

We have private call blocking!!

Warn your GP's and elderly neighbors to just hit *77 on their AT&T phone. Be sure what other phone companies offer, so check around.


and it will block all calls that withhold their phone number.

This is the Blonde's Service Announcement!!

take the Bad with the Good

I am checking out my birth chart and this is what is up this week:

Pretty acurate still....

You are more sensitive to, and frustrated by, anything that makes you feel stifled, restricted, oppressed, or restrained now. Your desire for independence or to feel unique and original is strongly stimulated, but you may not be going about it in the best manner. In fact, you might come across as rebellious, cantankerous, or hard to please. You may be especially impatient, impulsive, or prone to taking foolish risks. This stems from the desire to make changes in your life or to shake things up because you are sensitive to that which is boring, monotonous, or stale in your life.

I got a reminder of being careful to follow the right path.

The other night I watched Tatum O'Neil's reality show with Ryan on Oprah's network OWN. Its funny, I totally get where Tatum is coming form and that she is trying to work out things from her past.

I am in the same cycle of my life and trying to pull out successfully.

I have acknowledge the issues and now I am working on just letting them go and moving on. Sometimes the process is down right hard and sometimes certain things will catch the old wind of the past and stir up controversy with family.

You have to find closure on your own.

If you are looking for someone else to close the door to past regression or feelings...its always going to have a door stop in front of the door jam. Its going to stay cracked open with room for a slight breeze to set the door wide open and you back 10 feet from the finishing line of a happy life.

You have to pull that door shut on your own. Find closure from within...

I and Tatum must do that for ourselves...


But its nice to have a little virtual competition.

Mine won't be Hollywood style on a reality show which makes my odds a little more favorable.

You can live happily ever after with those who might have done you, a few things wrong.


The Blonde has a chart, not steps!!

Oh Beth

The very first rock band song I heard; it was the backside of my older sisters 45 and to this day...the best song ever!!

Too Much Love Will Kill You Everytime

goda dei miei amici!!

Its been a bad day, let music lift us up!!!

The Blonde's heart is in Norway!!!

The Breast Feeding Babydoll

Maybe I have a perverted mind but I can't help but think of other places someone might place the magnetic bra and have the baby doll sucking on some unsavory body parts...

If I can think this creatively, imagine little Johnny stealing the baby doll and bra
from baby sister and wanking his little tiddley tot with the sucking mechanical mouth.

but than again, I grew up with the baby doll with the magic disappearing milk bottle.

Think how many pedophiles logged on to youtube to watch an 8 year old put on a bra and play Mommie.

On another note, the chick who breast feeds 4 year old Ari in the park is not only gross its unnatural and someone needs to have a serious talk with reaching healthy boundaries in the maturing of their chi...hii..ii..ld..!!

When they have teeth and can walk, yu need to loose the tit Mother.

I thought my cat's crusty hairball was gross but this apparently beat it by 30% gross factor.

breast feeding is natural to the Mother and child but, even I, as a woman am not comfortable with a strange woman's tit dangling while calling for little Betty to come hither at my local Starbucks.

The Blonde is not into new age rugrat rearing!!

80% is What You Do

20% is what fate has in store for you.

I am suffering a few minor setbacks when it comes to playing catch up and saving for my university future.

80% is what I can handle, what happens or does not happen because of me.

Then there is the pesky 20% - no matter how hard I apply myself, no matter how hard I try to get where I am going - a mile long road block hits and I am stuck.

Faced with having to turn around and find another way.

I could be unconventional and go off the beaten path and work in camouflage hiding myself from that 20% fate but it will soon catch up with me.

So what is a Blonde to do?

Watch sappy John Hughes films today, wash the crusted hairball off my duvet, play virtual host to HCG protocol confused...

and keep on...

keeping on!!

Its too damn hot to push through that road blocks today, anyway.


The Blonde is 100% glad its Friday!!