The 1% Started Long Ago. And I lost Fighting Them!

I miss my Dad,

He was not full of panache but still charming; more subtle, so when he hugged you, or shook your hand, or gave you a compliment.... it was a big deal.

It meant something to everyone when my Dad gave them his approval. Everyone wanted it, including his daughters.

And he loved his family and was a big kid on holidays.

And then you had my Mother!

She loved her valium; got pregnant every time she thought my Dad was about to leave her; and so duh - hated she had to share her allowance for our school clothes, so yeah, while my sisters were OK with this, I decided I was not.

So it started with me packing a plush terry cloth robe from the Fox and Hound in Fredericksburg.

And that same fucking statement, " We can forgive you but we will never forget." 

Ok, seriously, I do not care, that was the best robe of my entire life and I had it for over 10 years!

So imagine how upset I am that my 'never had to work for anything in her life' mother is letting the estate my Father meticulously cared for, crumble to the fucking ground. 

The gardens are dying; the pool is empty;  the trees in the forest are falling; and the inside of the home is decaying.

I paid for new pool decking, the new washer and dryer, and give her $500 a month that she pisses away on gourmet German cold cuts she FedEx's from Wisconsin .

And I more than anyone will understand how much it will hurt her to hear she can't stay here any more. Because the only person who was willing to care for her and pay for the upkeep of this fucking Grey Gardens monstrosity, is ME, and I am not willing to lose me over her all consuming kingdom of hell.

It will be unbearable, and devastating. And it will feel like someone ripped the very heart out of her soul, but after that ..it will only take a decade or so to get over it.

But it might not feel that harsh to her since she never once touched a nail, saved any money, worked her ass off to pay for her own place.

She was scooped up as a Kim Novak look-alike model to a Captain with a 57 convertible in Germany.

Like most European girls during the war, they played nice to marry and get out, but once they were state side, that niceness changed.

My Dad was not a pretty man, but my Mom was fucking outstanding - so she had him under her little pinky nail for his entire life, and when he showed more affection to his daughters -  she twisted that pinky nail into his heart and soul until he caved and eventually lost his loving daughters coming out to his car the moment he got home and giving him hugs and kisses

After years, it became us hiding behind the bed because she was going to start something before he got a few feet out of his car, and grow into a full on fight before he could reach the front door and put down his breifcase.

So I stand here as problem child and who fucked up!

I am a hypocrite, because I failed. When I had a tough time growing my company and about to lose the house I bought at 20 to save my baby boy from the toxic home I grew up, I let my Dad convince me it would be better if my son went to live them for a while. I should have known I was never going to get my baby boy after that. .

I FUCKED UP....BEYOND FORGIVENESS!!

SO I HAVE BEEN LIVING IN A SELF-INFLICTED HELL EVER SINCE! 

I am sure if you scaffold down the years of this blog, you will find the one where my pink house, the one for me and my baby boy were lost to a man much like my Mother. 

A Dance We Should Have Had

I am sorry you loved her so much and she was so horrible to you.  I am so sorry she beat you up and made you gang up on me when ever you showed love toward me.

Forever more, I knew your love and I always felt it behind her wall.

My gift to you Daddy.

The dance we never had. 

Love always. XOXO 

Tried to Go Cold Turkey on JULL and I was an Emotional Wreck

 Think JULL is safer than smoking? I beg to differ.

I have been using JULL to quit smoking, and it worked. I have not a had a cigarette in 2 years. Unfortunately, it does not stop your nicotine addiction. And actually makes it WORSE!

The problem with JULL is that it can be done all the time, whereas smoking you would have to take a break or go outside and typically I only smoked during cocktail hour.

But with JULL, I was using it the minute I woke up in the morning until I went to bed. It leaves no odor, or so I thought but actually you can smell the lingering nicotine oily residue in the air, on your hair, skin, bedding, etc...

I was buying one pack a week and that quickly rose to 2, and I had 3 sticks charged up ready to go if one died on me. Also, when drinking the pure nicotine would jolt my buzz into a full blown out slurry drunk. NOT COOL!

Then I began to notice the damage, of consuming straight nicotine non-stop,  to my hair, my skin, my scent. It left an oily residue on my hair; I would sweat and feel hot after vaping;  my skin began to age.

Fuck with my looks, and that is the end of that! So I went cold turkey. 

I threw out all my JULL sticks and called it quits. Within hours, I could feel myself wanting to cry. A day later, and I was full on depressed, and by the third day I was an emotional wreck weeping in the arms of my friendly neighborhood grocery stop store attendant.

I couldn't figure out my breakdown.. I was two weeks away from my holiday meltdown... but I decided to pick up a pack of American Spirits with a bottle of wine and although the cigarette tasted incredibly disgusting, I did feel calmer.

So last week I went outside and smoked a few puffs every time I felt overwhelmed and feeling much better now.

I will not buy another pack of cigarettes, this was a one time get me off JULL emergency.

Let's just say, I would tell anyone thinking JULL is cool...it really isn't once you are seriously hooked. 

The Blonde is smoke and vape free, but the craving for nicotine will be a tough road for awhile. But I notice, when the craving hits - it is short lived and a quick bit with your vibrator will get you through.

BTW, the Gillette fusion has been a rocket in my pocket for 10 years and still the best!

If you crash and burn on an aero, your family would jus think you liked a close shave:)

Little Blonde advice!

Cancel Culture. All your Fucking Cancels are back! Weinstein, Spacey, and Oh Lord the South is a Rising on Netflix again!!!

Honestly, I just want to meet the cancel culture!

These fucking never fought in a war, pathetic snowflakes, self-entitled Americana vegan Nazis who think it is OK to bully someone out of their voice and in the same f'n breath , trash Germans under Hitler rule.

So it is OK to destroy reputations, bully citizens into silence, and if they still do not agree...

You will continue with smear tactics to hurt their entire family?

How is this OK but Hitler was a problem?

Seriously, I am asking a question.

IS IT OK TO MUTILATE A PERSON'S  LIFE BECAUSE THEY DID NOT AGREE WITH YOU?

 IS IT OK TO STAB EVERY PART OF A PERSONS FAMILY AND MAKE SURE THEY WERE MADE OUTCASTS BECAUSE THEY DID NOT AGREEE WITH YOU?

HOW DO ACCEPT CANCEL CULTURE BUT DENOUNCE HITLER? WHAT MAKES YOUR BEHAVIOR DIFFERENT?

IS IT BECAUSE YOU HAVE NOT BUILT UP ENOUGH TIME TO SHAME EVERYONE INTO YOUR BELIEF?

HITLER DID NOT HAPPEN OVER NGHT. MUCH LIKE YOU, HE SLOWLY STARTED SHAMING PEOPLE INTO THINKING THEY WERE MOSNSTERS FOR NOT SEEING HIS WAY.

OF COURSE HOW BRILLIANT OF YOU TO UNDERSTAND THE WEAKNESS OF CITIZENS.

A KID WHO HAS NEVER KNOWN:

WHAT IT FEEELS LIKE TO GO HUNGRY FOR WEEKS

WATCH YOUR CHILD GO HUNGRY AND SEE THEIR FACE AND EYES LOOK UP AND COULD NOT HELP THEM

WATCH YOUR MOTHER AND SISTER GET DRAGGED INTO ANOTHER ROOM, WHY YOU AND YOUR FATHER, HER HUSBAND HAD TO LISTEN TO THE UNBEARABLE.

AND AFTER THE WAR, THE REFUGEES CAME TO THE U.S. AND CARRY THAT FUCKING NIGHTMARE WITH THEM AND PUSH EVERY PART OF THAT HISTORY ONTO THEIR CHILDREN

BECAUSE NOT ONE OF YOU FUCKING CANCEL CULTURE DICKS OR CUNTS, HAVE EVER KNOWN REAL WAR.

Just when you think USAA can't piss someone off enough...

 they go ahead and find another way to do it!

Last time I dealt with them was a credit card charge made in Poland. I was never in Poland, but they refused to accept it as fraud. Needless to say, I did not pay and they cancelled the card and sent it to third- party creditors.

USAA is not the same when it was only for military. Ever since they opened it up, they placate to the low rent society and now they feel they can be an ass to even long standing members.

I am so glad my Father is dead and does not have to see how USAA has stripped honor and pride for being a member.

I WAS NEVER IN POLAND USAA ASSHOLES!

Austin Keeps Getting Worse! Now we are Dubai!

Upscale Austin Hospitality Group Buys Longtime Restaurant Ski Shores Cafe
McGuire Moorman Lambert is taking over the Lake Austin restaurant’s operations and will turn the Barton Springs location into its casual cafe Lou’s...which by the way totally sucks!

Say goodbye to our 'Keep Austin Weird' vibe and welcome in pretentious cunts!

Oh wait news update:

Lakeway, TX  Millionaires behind gated communities are worried and upset that they do not have enough housing for their workforce.

Yet, they do not want the workforce housing too close to their neighborhood, for fear the kids will end up going to the same school.

What the fuck to do? Lakeway?, this is an epic quandary of what to do to save white privilege!

WHAT WILL YOU DO/!

READ THEIR STORY BY CLICKING THIS little grey LINK:

'A gated city for millionaires is not sustainable' — Lakeway shoots down workforce housing

Judice and Dante

Married people will do anything to spice up their life. 

But they are always smart to choose the ones that have no backup.

They choose the one who will never be believed. 

Even the brain surgeon who divorced his wife and married his trailer-trash receptionist thinks his world has value.

Doctor Brains had a giant golf ball coming out if his bald head.

His new gutter wife, shocked that the tumor was benign and learned he would not die, needed to find someone to fuck him so she could continue to live the gold-digger life with money and the shop the boutiques in Austin to launder money.

The deal was with "Blonde Coke Herpes Spinner", who would take care of mutant doctor wile blondie Wynette would shop around ways to cash in her credit card charges at boutiques to get money from the ailing ugly man and then come home and split it with spinner.

and that gold digger and spinner were hooked up with Judice and Dante...

What a Mother fucking perfect hell storm of predators. Male and Female

Wife and Husband 

They all think they are good people but they preyed on the weak. They invited in single women, only to certain parties.

More than happy to share all my texts from each and every one of them on this list I have and hold dear.

Judish and Danish perfect life, and with adopted babies? So cute, but I have the history of the dirty?

Jesus what has it been? 30 years? Where are you =r old cell phones because I have all of mine:)

Yeah Greg, take the Coke back for a Refund!

Thanks Gregory from" Succession", for reminding me of my coke fueled days in Austin, TX.

Raised in a proper home in Virginia, educated in a proper finishing school in North Carolina, and but sadly finding myself in the midst of midwestern lack of decorum!

I never fucked with drugs before I moved to Austin. I made a mistake coming here!

I can't go back in time and fix the fuck that went on here. But, Austin is not cool! You will figure that out son.

Austin is the new Silicon Valley. And why do you need a new Silicon Valley?

Be very careful when someone from Texas says they have a friend! This means, they have an acquaintance that will help them suck money out of you!

I remember my Texas friends wanting coke, and my guy only delivered on Thursday after his soap operas were over and he finished playing in the park with his Shar-Pei pups.

But, if you know how that itch works, my friends wanted it NOW. 

I had already fronted the money for the coke, and when it came in...my so-called friends said they already got some and I was stuck with the merch.

I said, "NO, I fronted money that was supposed to go to my mortgage.". You need to pay up.

They said, "Can't you get a refund? Take it back!" Are you FUCKING KIDDING ME?

Coke is not a cashmere sweater you can return to Nordstrom , no questions asked!

Anyhoo, they fucked me in more ways than one.

Not only was a stuck with the coke, I could not make my mortgage payment, and the dominoes just kept tumbling on the penalties and interest.

And not one of those Mother Fuckers gave a shit. They actually distanced themselves from me.

Hard lesson to learn, but every time I see someone snort that shit on a television show, I want to puke. 

I also learned, any person who would fuck you over this bad for coke is not only not your friend, but the worst kind of piece of shit.

Which makes sense that they would be a long time friend of that dick in California who is a predator, and has been his executor on the will since the coke days.

Bravo you sick fucking freaks for sticking together!

P.S. Know what is funny? The digital contents, like your text messages, contact list and calendar data, are untouched and will still be accessible by any user working with your old cell phone. This is the primary reason many of today's smartphones are equipped with remote wipe capabilities, which allow you to remotely erase the device's data in case it is lost or stolen. 

Cell phones from 20 years ago, did not have this capability. The reason why I never let go of my old devices!

For fuck sakes, I still have all my floppy disks and 100 mb zip drives with a certain special cookbook you can't get any more. 

Oh no, of course your dog can piss and shit all over the Zen Garden!

 Fucking neighbors and their god damn dogs. Let them shit and piss in their own yard.

I am fine as long as the owners pick up the dog shit, but I have yet to see one of our new money neighbors carry a doggie shit bag.

The Zen Garden on my Father's Estate cost quite a penny and it was his pride and joy.... so moth balls should make the dogs and dog owners think twice about fucking with it,. That will be my joy!

I watched two of my cats get chewed up in front of me by dogs without a leash. And the only thing the dog owners were concerned about was my litigious nature. There was no sorrow, nor true sadness, nor forgiveness for what their dogs did to my cats lounging on the estate.

I am not that much of an asshole, but ever since these new neighbors coming in from California; I am rethinking my good nature.

Do you ever wonder why cancer is so prevalent in dogs? Think about all the weed killer and bug spray that goes on lawns. And your dog is sniffing at it like nobody's business. 

This is not the part of society that gives two shits about organic fertilizer. They pay for monthly spraying with chemicals to keeps weeds gone and bugs gone.

Dog beware!

Best Buy and LG! Let us KNOW the Power Cord does not come with the Dryer!

Are you fucking kidding me? 

I just bought a $2k LG smart washer and dryer set and the dryer did not come with a power cord. 

You have to pay Best Buy $56 to get the fucking power cord installed on the dryer. Had the description told me that, I would have paid for it. But now I am pissed!

And when a blonde is pissed watch out for tumbling stars on their reviews!

Amazon sells the power cord for $16.

Out of principal, I am going to pay $100 to a review posting farm in India to flood LG and Best Buy with 1 star reviews. 

Look at Best Buy, they know all about these farms, because if you look at the redundant copy on all their reviews, they use them too. And the fact no one bothered to mention a power cord is extra in the reviews...seriously?

Hey Best Buy! Put in the description that the electrical cord is not included!

And the dickhead 3rd party delivery service that I tipped $40, pushed the dryer back and not the washer. The washer was heavier, so fuckers knew what they were doing. 

I am exchanging the dryer as defective because the 3rd screw for the electrical cord was so tight, it could not be loosened. 

God luck getting a tip on this delivery! I really hope it is the dick dudes from last time!

Character Assassination. Dave Portnoy. PENN Stock!

 Dave Portnoy may be aggressive and suck in bed,. I don't give a fuck. BUT I DO!!!

My PENN stock is tanking on this article and the shit being spread.

Business Insider needs a disclaimer for entertainment only and hang their hat next to the National Enquire.

And I would have believed that BI was the dick, but Dave opened up his mouth and played victim, and I heard the sincere words of a predator who is so mentally fucked, he really believes he was the victim.

Obviously, Dave is a predator and treats girls who throw themselves at him like trash, but maybe the Mothers' of these girls should have put some self worth into them.

Something this Blonde knows all too much about! 

I loved Dave and his pizza reviews, and thought I could keep supporting him, but honestly, I can not!

I do not look at him the same way.

I understand the girls more than Dave.

If you read my posts, you will understand...this is not a man to admire and I am willing to take the loss.

Money is easier to lose than self-respect!