I'm Losing It

No seriously, I have got to get out and mix among life again.

I have a trip in the beginning of April to the east coast and hopefully things will work and I can stay awhile. I need Manhattan right now. I need it loud and busy and full of things to do.

Austin has become a 6 mile radius of life for me. I rarely go out and if I do, it just to the store.
I barely no my friends any more.

Basically I have been pouting because my life has not gone right for awhile. After being laid off my job in December right before x-mas was harsh and the reality moving out of my parent's abode delayed has sunk me to submarine life.

I realize moving is only going to happen if someone offers a room-mate situation. Going to school and the jobs available while I go to school can't afford the rent that is being charged these days...in any town.

I am hovering and lingering over the mistakes I made about my past and realize you can;t change any of it. The problem is, those mistakes have effected my present for a long time and may have altered a great future..

IF I let it...

but I won;t. I am going to get up one more time and try all over again.

A change of scenery and getting away from all the reminders-even if its temporary-is very much needed.

The Blonde needs to gather up!!

I Didn't Forget I am not In Love Anymore

...so don't you ever send me a picture of you again.

How dare?

On what planet do you live on that its OK to burn me and my life to ashes and than think I would ever want you back?

Que?


Because I am still struggling with surviving after all you took...

I know you know that

And I know that is why you think I might want you back..

News Flash...

I don't

I do mind poverty but I am not alone...

I am not the only one struggling...

Money was never what I was about...

I like it, I want it, but I would never love a man for it...

You forgot why I loved you...

Or did you ever know why I loved you...

its confusing for you old gents...


SOOOOOOOOOOO

Remember me

and this....

I would rather walk on coals through a gallows of hell gleaming ear to ear knowing you will never

EVER

have the luxury of seeing me again!!


The Blonde will now bow and curtain close!!

Twitter Dee Twitter Dumb

Did you know there are apps to automatically delete followers who are not following you?

What kind of asshole would use this app?

I follow the ones I do because they are some of the most clever, most brilliant, incredible thought producing humans I have ever had the distinct pleasure of reading.

Why would I miss anything they say to follow a thousand people just to have a thousand follow me?

If all you care about is numbers, than you do not care about what people say...and you might as well be a candidate for the Republican race.

Twitter is about the voice of an individual and when its dilluted by these apps, you hurt the very soul of Twitters goal.

Follow those on twitter because they speak to you.

Not because they are a number...

Find your nitch on Twitter.

The Blonde's twitter list is raunchy, crazy, wonderful outcasts...

And they get in the club without ever having to wait in line with bullshit twats!




A

SXSW

I am in the midst of the SXSW epidemic going on in Austin.

And what am I doing?

Nothing!!

Nadda!!

Home alone!!!

In the comfort of a cushy chair on the veranda with smokes, wine, and a wide screen playing music through my Bose surround sound.

Why on earth would I battle lines for a warm beer or sticky drink along side stinky, sloppy people?

6th St is a massacre of crazy and I rather not partake!

SXSW is set up mostly to piss you off. You may have a badge but the venues are small and you have to fight to get in...why bother with the $600 price tag for all that?

If your young and its Spring Break and Mexico is off limits due to the drug cartel..SXSW is for you..

but if your a true aficionado...stay home and crank the surround sound...and wait for the crowd to go back from whence they came

The Blonde is NW for the duration!

No Need to Speak

The Blonde has music!

Never Let Me Go

The Blonde bows her head to the incredible and undeniable Florence and the Machine!!!

Just One More from Johnny Lang

"Dying To Live"
Mmm...
You know I've heard it said there's beauty in distortion
By some people who withdraw to find their head
And they say that there is humor in misfortune
No, I wonder if they'll laugh when I am dead...

Why am I fighting to live
If I'm just living to fight?
Why am I trying to see...
When there ain't nothing in sight?
Why am I trying to give
When no one gives me a try?
Why am I dying to live
If I'm just living to die...

Yeah...
You know some people say that values are subjective
But they're just speaking words...
That someone else has said...
And so they live and fight and kill with no objective
Sometimes it's hard to tell the living from the dead

Why am I fighting to live
If I'm just living to fight?
Why am I trying to see...
When there ain't nothing in sight?
Why am I trying to give
When no one gives me a try?
Why am I dying to live
If I'm just living to die...

Mmmm...You know I used to weave
my words into confusion
And so I hope you'll understand me
when I'm through
You know I used to live my life as an illusion
But reality will make my dream come true

So I'll keep fighting to live
Till there's no reason to fight
And I'll keep trying to see
Until the end is in sight
You know I'm trying to give
So come on
Give me a try
You know I'm dying to live
Until I'm ready to die
I'm ready to die

The Blonde is humbled by the music!

Resotration

Heart is heavy
Soul is thirsty
Body's achin'
I am desperately in need of restoration
I am ready for you to take me higher
The only thing that I can do is keep on praying
On my own I just can't get it right
It doesn't matter how hard I try
But with you I've become a much stronger man
Getting on my knees puts me back on my feet again
Load is heavy
Too much accumulation
These possessions that I have amount to nothing at all
I am willing to hand over every one of them
'Cause they won't profit me anything in the end
/Repeat chorus/
Never again: will I wander without you alone in the wilderness
Never again: Will I offer to you anything less than my very best!
Never again: Never again Now that I understand

The Blonde is not the Only one feeling down sometimes!!