Dallas likes Big

especially in their resort hotels.

Cool as Cool Gets

They look like an Abercrombie and Fitch Ad.

The Blonde likes cool things!

Better late than Never

is fine on some things but when it comes to financial aid, the fed ex slogan needs to apply.


"When it absolutely, positively has to be there overnight"


I have emailed, telephoned, and now I am incommunicado with financial aid because those less lazy have gone down in person and have a line formed that would be worth standing only if they were handing out the aid in cash. meanwhile I will wait for my electronic response because I am a lazy x-generation student that feels its a waste of gas to get nowhere.


In the meantime, I was able to purchase my books and begin class which is a good thing because it will take my mind of other things.


I am still upset about my missing kitty cat and last night I had an awful dream that he came home with his tail end shredded off. And to make matters worse, I was awoken from this dream by a horrible screeching sound outside my window. My heart was racing and I jumped from the bed, still half asleep, and opened the window to see what was going on. I thought an animal was being torn apart outside but alas....


NOPE!!


It was the air conditioner unit. Not sure if it was mine or the neighbors but the sound stop and I was wide awake for the rest of the morning. 


What the hell am I supposed to do with awakeness at 7 am in the morning!? 


I don;t need a jump start on my day!


So...


I went for a walk looking for my long lost furry baby, again.


I will take the signs down in a couple of days and eventually my search will end and the guilt will continue and the hope that one day he might be back will take a long time to die down in my heart.


I just hope wherever he is...that he hasn't or doesn't suffer.


In the meantime...


The Blonde says hooo-rah for school again!!

The Full Moon?

Is it a glitch or is it evil at its bewitching hour?

Thrice I have tried to post this blog and thrice it went blank.

After pouring my heart and soul into the matter three times before, I have only this to offer.

A freak in an early 90s model red Chevy truck stalked my arse as I jogged the main street in my hood enough to make me duck in hedges and wait out his drive by's. I finally got home and was so disturbed by the freak that I called the PD.

I am used to some brake and flirt when I run on the road  but this was beyond harmless play. This dude waited in side streets while traffic chilled and than he bolted toward me.

If I see this truck again, he is the one who will need to run!!

The Blonde is shaken but not deterred!!

I Am Lost

even more so than my cat!!

A lot of things have been lost in the past few weeks. 

People

Fish

A Cat

Love

The only thing I haven't lost is my luggage. Its such a good set of luggage too. 

Guaranteed to pack up a relationship in less than an hour with room to spare for a broken heart.

I don't know what life has in store for me. I am sure calling God a dick didn't help any but lately he hasn't helped much anyway.

Like I say:

 if you want a life done right; you have to do it yourself!

The Blonde is soul searching!!

PS. Sorry I called you a dick, God!! 

Where is Peppy?

My flyer campaign is working. It would have worked better had my family put them up while I was in Dallas. I knew they wouldn't put up posters. Slackers!!

Anyhoo,

the frustration and feeling helpless in Dallas just burst open the other day and I am now home looking feverishly for my little guy.

I don't know if I will find him but at least I feel better that I am doing everything possible to find him.

If you want a job done right, sometimes you just have to do it yourself.

The Blonde will find something!!

I'm not asking

and I am not praying....

I am telling you GOD....

Bring back my cat!!

I don't deserve this.

I am sick and tired of always looking over my shoulder to see what you will do to fuck up my day.

Just when I think things are going well...you throw a right hook and wipe the floor with me.

wHAT THE f DID I EVER DO TO YOU?

I have fucking had it!!

BRING BACK MY CAT!

The Blonde is beginning to think GOD is a dick!!

Oops, My Blonde

My fish was just at the other end of the pond!!

Blonde Moment!

My Fish Is Gone

We bought new fish for the pond and one in particular seemed to be an old soul that I knew. It would come to me every time I went outside and let me pet it.

Today, it was gone.

Vanished.

And I can't help but think what soul came by to revisit me?

And why did it have to leave so suddenly?

I guess nature is that way. And if we are smart enough to view it in its proper form, we get so much out of such an insignificant creature in such little amount of time.

I knew from the beginning that fish would not be with me long. I knew it but still a little bit of shock and sadness runs through me today.

I thought I would have just a bit longer with it.

I hoped it would stay even though deep down it would go soon.

Funny how things are, don't you think?

A brief encounter with a fish leaves an empty spot in my soul and I am still glad I got the chance to love it just a little bit.

I just wish I loved it more in the short time I had.

Its poetic considering the things that have happened around me lately.

Goodbye my sweet fish.

Good night my sweet soul, wherever and whom ever you may be.

I am alright if that's what you were wondering.

The Blonde still remains true to her nature!!

The Problem With Sophistication

...is that it costs so much more than not. Trying to be a stylish person on a budget is difficult to pull off unless you are able to dress in younger styles.

But if you want the conservative, sophisticated styles it takes to really show yourself well...

Well...

I am not in that income bracket yet.

I used to be but not for awhile now and anything that might have been suitable for the affair I need it for has long worn its welcome out in my closet.

I stopped subscribing to Vogue and Elle just before I went back to school. Why torture myself with the beautiful things I can not have at the moment.

Anyhoo...

discount shopping 101 tomorrow...ugh!!!

Just once I would like to put layers of designer bags, dresses, and shoes in a giant pile of fabulousness and roll around in it for a bit.

The Blonde needs a black dress!

Hummin' Along

While old black betty-aka. the jag-is in the shop, I had my BFs Hummer to commute back to Austin today. I knew it would be fun because driving a a new and cool vehicle would break up the monotony of driving, once again, to Austin.

What I did not know is how wonderful a feel I got from driving it. It felt like I was in a love lock hug with my boyfriend the whole ride through.

For the past several commutes, I was in fear of wiping out in my car because of the steering rack. It was so ingrained in me that every time I took the Hummer around a curve, I clinched my neck waiting for the steering to slip. It took me a few curves before I could relax my muscles and drive in utter bliss, and my mind farthest away from any fear.

Once I relaxed and realized this Hummer had my back, it occurred to me how much my boyfriend has given me. The most important being the luxury to be able to sigh relief of my

woes under his care.

I promised not to write about him so I am only going to plug him just a little...

HE IS FAB, SUPER FAB!!!

but that is all I am going to say

out of respect for his privacy!!

The hummer got between 9 to 16 miles per gallon on this ride but the joy of it was worth the Franklin I have to put in her at the pump. It is as big and fabulous a personality as my BF ( a little more bragging won;t hurt).

For the first time in a long time, I feel safe and cared for and that is a huge thing to miss out on for so long.

And I don't mean the Hummer.

The Blonde is humming a fabulous new beau!!

Hoarse of Course

My sister's voice has gone hoarse screaming at our parents who are on holiday at her house.

I can only chuckle in glee that now my sister gets a bird's eye view of the cookoo's nest that fills my life on a monthly basis.

I am just so happy that my sisters are sharing in the suffering, I don't know what to say.

Accept maybe...

Hahhh HAHAHAH HA

Hah hah Uh HAh

Uh Hah Uhaaa

The Blonde has no words for the joy she feels!!