DESPORADO

This song's meaning is not for the public!!!

Some songs don't get you through things..some songs just make great endings...

Some days, the Blonde wishes she never woke up!

Learning To Walk Again

A million miles away
Your signal in the distance
To whom it may concern
I think I lost my way
Getting good at starting over
Every time that I return

I'm learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?
I'm learning to talk again
Can't you see I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?

Do you remember the days
We built these paper mountains
And sat and watched them burn
I think I found my place
Can't you feel it growing stronger
Little conqueror

I'm learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?
I'm learning to talk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?

Now
For the very first time
Don't you pay no mind
Set me free again
You keep alive a moment at a time
But still inside a whisper to a liar
To sacrifice but knowing to survive
The first to find another state of mind
I'm on my knees, I'm waiting for a sign
Forever, whenever
I never wanna die
I never wanna die
I never wanna die
I'm on my knees
I never wanna die
I'm dancing on my grave
I'm Running through the fire
Forever, whatever
I Never wanna die
I Never wanna leave
I'll Never say goodbye
Forever, whatever
Forever, Whatever

I'm learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?
I'm learning to talk again
Can't you see I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?

I'm learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
I'm learning to talk again
Can't you see I've waited long enough

Baby steps for the Blonde!!

I Want More

Because the Blonde deserves more!!

Slacker Studies

Work was a bit of a disaster today. Since I work from a virtual office, I do not have the luxury of standing around the office cooler to bash my co-workers but even if I was using an office in the company...the notion of drumming up trumped up charges against someone to save my own inadequacies would never happen.

I don't have inadequacies!

I have only been with the company for a month and I understand there is a settling in time where things might go a bit hay wire.

I have learned that not to over achieve at my job.

I need to slack back and enjoy the paycheck without making too many ripples.

From now on, I am going to take that advice and chill.

As far as the rest of my life is going..its not going very far...just up the road

I fell short of funds for the unvisited I applied to and must wait for spring. Meanwhile though I am moving into a new place.

rent in Austin is super high compared to what I can get with a downtown Dallas view in D-town but at least I don;t have to move very far.

I didn't get the amount I was hoping in grants and scholarships..I was going to use the money for back up rent just in case something happens to the new job.

I was hoping to have my car painted...

I was hoping to do a lot of things but fate has something else in stored for me...

I really hope I can move further away from my fear of losing everything and reach my goal of finding the perfect home and finishing law school.

I am hoping, hoping, hoping....

Hope is all the Blonde has right now!

My Ex Un-Boyfriend

OK, listen up!!!

I supplied my blog's password to an ex lover..I never meant anything to him other than a good time to keep him in line with is proper rich girlfriend..

No, its not Augusto..who, BTW, I have done the same thing with him for 6+ years..

I think it would be great to understand their side..

My blog is one sided and I hate one sided bullshit...

Knock yourself out Raine...

Rules:

No real names

No real dates

Only write what you feel, not wht you think is true!

and don't f#$@ with my music videos!!

other than that..

The Blonde welcomes Raine to the dance!!!