Killing Eve before Me

What I love about "Killing Eve", is her child like innocence against her cold blooded killer 'get it done' while holding an inquisitive look as to why the people she kills look at life in such a stupid way.

My favorite are the assassinations of arrogant women:

The bitch with the piano and the nanny scene, and the frightened bunny with shaking hands that tried to scare the hiccups out of Eve before she loses her last breath to a garden hose.

Brilliant writing and acting.

I digress. Or do I? I came from the same sample of home life that could have made me a killer, yet I have no killer instinct in me.

I would like to think myself this way, but I am too busy saving stupid fucking frogs at the moment!.

anyhoo....back to the blondes diary:

Asking God why he hated me so much was never answered.  If he did, I probably would not have tried so many times to kill myself.

I just wanted to know why he hated me so much. Why he gave me these parents. What did I do wrong?

Like they say, you really never want to die, you just want someone to answer you when you ask why this life?

Honestly, still asking God, "What the fuck did I do to deserve this fucking life?" Because I really want to fucking know!!!

And please don't be one of those assholes who plays the cancer kid card on me and how better my life was until you can explain to me how dying of cancer with loving parents next to your bed is better than being beat by a  belt, mentally abused, scared to death every time they came home every mother fucking day was better than dying of cancer.

And then years later,  as a teen acting out, those abusive parents tell all their neighbors and relatives how horrible and terrible she is to who parents that just want the best for her?

Yeah, some parents suck, and you are fucked if born into an abusive one! RUN!! RUN!!! Better than wanting to kill yourself!

But run in a smart direction! 

Born to the wrong parents?

 Me too!

Let's work this conundrum out.

This is not about having shitty parents, which I did - actually just one. who made my Dad's life and mine a living hell!

But, this is about feeling God dropped you in the wrong hands.

Did you cry yourself to sleep at 6 years old with stuffed animals around you bed?

Did you beg God to take your life and wake up every hour to make sure your stuffed animas did not fall out of the bed. And make sure if they did, tuck them back in really tight and close.

Was your head shaped differently than your siblings?

What made you stand out as the one she would pick on?

Did she use you as a punching bag while loving her other children?

Did she hate you?

And did she stop her cruelty after you left?

Did she continue to be a cunt because you always....because you, you....you always .....

You know how to finish that question Mom...you just won't bring yourself to.

I wish I had that mean spiritedness you and your other daughters have, but I don't and why I keep getting hurt.

I need this diary as much as I need to get away from you.

I was never your child, I was born to the wrong mother.

Know who your friends are

 If you stop posting on Facebook, Instagram, TikTok, Twitter, etc...how long will it take someone to notice you are gone? And out of those that notice, how long will it take them to call anyone they know to see if you are OK?

In my social world, not a fucking one. They do not know me well enough to understand the grief I have lived. They stopped listening to me a long time ago. 

I am not status quo, I don't ask you to look at endless pics of me hiking, kayaking, biking, showing off my Botox face, that misses the mark against my aging neck skin and body, nor happy with my hubbie pic even deep down I want to dick punch him.

Oh yes, I get to say, "DICK PUNCH" on my domain. 

Twitter and Facebook would have knocked me off, but they will be gone soon. They are dinosaurs, they just do not know it yet. 

And Hey! bravo to the the psychos who blocked my 911 post but keep third world countries happy with their recruitments for the cartel.

Makes it seem silly my post was blocked for a simple dick pick from the 80,  but cartels are free to reign on Facebook under the motto of "just doing business".....

In January, a former cop turned Facebook Inc. investigator posted an all-staff memo on the company’s internal message board. It began “Happy 2021 to everyone!!” and then proceeded to detail a new set of what he called “learnings.” The biggest one: A Mexican drug cartel was using Facebook to recruit, train and pay hit men.

The behavior was shocking and in clear violation of Facebook’s rules. But the company didn’t stop the cartel from posting on Facebook or Instagram, the company’s photo-sharing site.

Facebook and Apple are criminals!

They think I need 30 days to reconsider?

Scary, they are deciding for me.

Have you read "1984" or "Animal Farm"?

Pick up and read a George Orwell book.

Apple and Facebook have made our lives very much Orwellian!

They are Fleebs!

Why I hate married people!

As a single woman, of course I would hate married people. 

Let's put some context to it. 

Back in high school or college, or even in your young 20s, you have to admit you were never as confident alone as when you were surrounded by your best friend.

It is a powerful combination knowing someone always has you back, no matter how awful you or they  are.

The Clintons and the Trumps come to mind.

But it happens on a small scale too, from rednecks to country clubbers.

Married people have more credibility than single women. Not single men, they are exempt from this bushtit.

And why?

Why does it still exist, because women are the meaner species. They have claws even when they seem like pussy cats.

I know first hand. I had my Mother teach me how horrible a woman who has a man behind her, powering her confidence, while always scared that power could be lost at any time, drive them to do  anything that would get in their way from keeping that power. Even hurting her own daughter if she thought her a threat.

What fucked up Mother sees her own daughter as threat?

And now that grown up daughter has to figure out how to stop pushing herself down and move ahead.

I think that is why I am so disgusted with Facebook and the lies they promote.

The world is an ugly place and you don't get to make it look pretty.

As long as everyone looks like they live a beach party, it is OK. Anyone pushing others to feel real emotion and real life is squashed by their own friends.

They only want pretty sunsets, cute animal picks, and the dream that the world is perfect in this digital frame they have built for themselves.

But I know differently, I know the truth away from Facebook, the things they do not share, the things that are dark and grow outside that pretty little digital façade.

The darkness, the demons, the loneliness...

The perverse photos sent to men that your husband takes, the massive amounts of Botox you subject your face to all in the hopes your husband will stop with the young women he is becoming less and less careful of hiding.

Yet, these married people will always have the benefit over the doubt, while women like Rose McGowan will never have it. 

Damaged goods, is damaged good and easy to dismiss and if you married easier to destroy.

https://www.latimes.com/entertainment-arts/story/2021-09-13/larry-elder-rose-mcgowan-newsom-recall-election

Hedgies Watch Youtube too!

Don't be an ass and FOMO into the stocks this idiot are playing you with.

Clay Trader

By the way,  let me spare you a pre-recorded "Live Webinar" by Clay who tries to sell you on a $25k up-front package using his little girl to belittle you, which really only attracts low self-esteem people willing to give up this money instead of buying a couple of books and learning themselves.

But hey, he was a football player, so he is well-versed in being a dick to the unpopular and has made it a great opportunity to make money for himself . 

He is not an idiot - just a fucking bully-raised, bully-forever!

I would like to say I am flabbergasted at how stupid people really are, but, there really are this stupid.

Clay bought investment property not on making $600 a day n day trade which 40% will go to capital gains. he made it buy shilling his outrageously priced "Day Trade University". 

He is no better than Trump University. Not accredited and a waste of fucking MONEY!

Lucifer Must be Killing Christians

Have you seen Lucifer on Netflix?

Who absolutely loves it? I bet the hard-core bible thumpers are turning in their pew right now!

Eve turns out to be a lesbian and marries a demon.

All hail the Devil is about to become God.

This new season rocks!

20th Anniversary of 911

To Fucking Facebook

I know your algorithms are not mature enough to sense a decent post against terrorism and violent ones - it is only based on word association in a repetitive search and scribe. You have never updated Facebook and have no AI beyond word association. And the rest is up to the proletarians, who probably do not know what this word means. And they decide what stays and goes? 

I bet you will be busy this weekend, distinguishing between those that want to share their moment in time of that day and the anger they still feel, against those who still promote it as a success for their cause. 

And the fact your antiquated algos fail, and your proletarians have no sense of anything outside of the script you feed them, I have no doubt many will fall between the cracks of your community censorship guidelines. You know who else has community guidelines? China.

Covid was Karma for Me

 I can't help but think how differently people view Covid. Many lost their lives, and families suffered.

But for me, it was elation and karma coming alive to punish all those that pushed me down.

Where I came from, how I was raised, I did not have the confidence to stick up for myself and I was pushed down beyond belief way into adulthood. 

They say after a certain age it is on you to get up, but that is bullshit when you were dealt a shitty fucking hand from birth.

Eventually you do get up, but not after being knocked down a thousand times and finally saying fuck this.

But than you take that 'fuck you' attitude a little too far for the status quo and you get banned and blocked from shit.

I have several twitter accounts, and on one I was so pissed off by Elon Musk and his bullshit when it came to crypto and fucking people, I tweeted a snarky comment that someone should dick punch him. I got banned from twitter.

And not willing to apologize so that account is in limbo, like an epitaph that has no ending date.

Covid hurt every company that I hated working for. That is a bonus for me and no one I cared about died from it. But than again, I only care about one person in this world.

So yes, Covid was super awesome for me. I got to watch everyone who treated me like a piece of shit get wrekt.

Delta variant, I don't need back up. We got the fuckers the first time. 

Blonde truth! 

My house is now worth $600,000

 Unfortunately, I lost it a long time a go to a woman hater, who did everything he could to put me down monetarily. He won in that aspect because it has taken me years to recover.

Herb Albert Prick was his name as I recall. A savvy old man that had more charm than money, and did not understand the rules of keeping a younger woman happy. 

He really thought that I owed him. And he took as much as he could.

After he took my house, and came back to rob me of the rings and bullshit promises, he sent me a picture of him in an email.

All I recall is my reply telling him the next time I see his photo, that it better be in the obituary column.

I have not heard from him since, and glad of that. Although, I do hold out hope to see that obituary one day.

Netflix Stock Created Its own Beast

When the next gen babies, which come about from  #Netlfix because their parents got so bored watching old and regurgitated movies, they will revolt and go to a blockchain video site, which will not push a culture agenda, and gives the new babies what they want without political trending tactics to market their bullshit b-flick movies.

The best part is, Netflix created their own beast.. They wanted us to feed off binge watching like blood thirsty vampires, and when they have been drained from our views, they no longer sustain our hunger and we look elsewhere. We will keep feeding with our without them.

Am I wrong?

Facebook Censorship

Who are they to decide if my comment about the Black Lives Matter Movement, that instigated riots and destruction in my town, are considered hate speech? Did I say anything bad? Did I say anything derogatory? No, I did nothing but voice my opinion on the movement being a catalyst for bad actors. And I was cut off.

Now, my friend sends me a 1985 Playgirl Magazine for a birthday gift which was hysterical, and I posted the centerfold to friends only, who would find it funny as well - all adults - but kicked off for 24 hours. No worries, will send the link and image tomorrow and see what happens. I could care less about being on Facebook. I am laughing my ass off right now, considering the bullshit Facebook let's in and doesn't.

Are we the 7th graders in a universe where we should be dictated what is right or wrong among friends? Are we still passing notes behind the teachers back?

I really hate being told what I can and can not do by the man!

Do you not find it funny Facebook has not updated their platform. No plugins we can use for adult content. Nothing...these fuckers do nothing but data mine our shit. And we can never delete it, God forbid you get stuck in a conspiracy built by the U.S. needing someone to take the fall. I know I am at the top of their list. 

Are you?

This puritanical reign on nudity is a dichotomy if you think about it. Just stupid thinkers much like the 

little prick Zuckerberg. One can tell he stole it all.