10.29.2011

To Love SOmeone Woman style

Janis Joplin...style




Women love with more soul!! Just is!!

Une Derniere Fois

One more Time...



To live you need to love...something or someone!!

10.26.2011

I Must Rebel

or digress..there is no way in hell I am not buying something designer this year and so what is my favorite fashion...

Boots

I bought another pair of over the top, over the knew Rebel Luma boots.

I would not call these super designer like Laboutin or Jimmy Choo...but for me they are perfect for school and my trip to New York.

For the holidays, I am treating myself to a trip to New York. I found a fab little boutique hotel called the Library Hotel..Its concept is based on the dewey decimal system. I thought it would be fun to cram the end of semester studying in at the New York Public Library and do some walking, walking, walking...

The only excercise I have gotten is sitting at my desk, bouncing on an excercise ball.

I need to get away from my desk!

The Blonde is going vogue!!

10.25.2011

Taking Risks

I am taking baby steps to create a little risk in my life.

I started depositing money back into my miniscule Ameritrade account. I am building my money market account and eventually will get back to trading futures and options.

Believe it or not, I was actually pretty good at it.

I had a major loss when I let my X participate in my account and I lost my shirt on coffee.

I also made the mistake of trusting a trader in California to handle my corn trades back before ethanol was involved and he did not place my order and I again lost my shirt.

Something about men and my money end up with me in the red.

I am finding life much easier to handle and much more proseprous without a man around.

I think I like this new life style.

Its me again, on my own and not caring about having a man in my life.

I like this.

No to say, I am not lonely at times but I am not going to let that deter me and look for something that I really don;t want or need to fulifll an emptiness.

Money can fill that void for me.

I could take my money and grab a flat, buy a new car, or fill my closet again with designer goods but you know what?

Those things don't make me feel better about me...

Those things make other people feel better about me...

and I don't need anyone to feel better about me.

I feel pretty great on my own.

I rather sink my money back into the markets and take a little financial risk again.

Its always panned out so much better than a man.

Life is coming back full circle.

Baby steps to get there but I will.

I will get back everything I lost and more.

All I can say is...

Who the hell needs a man around?


The Blonde found a new market!!

10.23.2011

The Dingy Blonde

I am the dingy blonde.

My whole life I have been waiting for someone to help pull me in from the ocean.

It gets tiring swimming against the tide.

The waves grow larger.

The water grows deeper.

And after treading and swimming on my own, I reach for someone, anyone...to pull me in.

And they do...

I can always find someone to pull me in...

but only to the dingy...

never to the boat.

I drift behind the boat in a dingy...

and I am so grateful just for not having to tread, all alone, anyomore, that I take that dingy as if it were the boat.

But as I float in that dingy...I begin to see the boat in front of me.

And I wonder, why can;t I come on the boat?

What is it about me, that no one ever pulls me in all the way?


I have been floating on the back end of someone's boat for so long being grateful for so little.

And now, I don;t ask anymore...I just never reach out anymore.

I don't need a dingy.

I have been treading this long.

I have built strength and endurance.

I will keep swimming.


What choice do I have.

Drown?!

Not a chance.

The Blonde is too stubborn to get in anyone's dingy again!!!

10.21.2011

Cheap Flights

Who the fuck do you think I am?

I had a credit that I was willing to use to meet up with you in NOLA..
but you chose to pay for my flight..

I gave you the dates I was willing to fly and you ignored them...

You are trying to find the cheapest flight and the longest stay to accomadate your sexual needs at a T.J. Maxx discount.

Are you fucking kidding me?!!

Where did desperate fornication show up on profile?!


I will ditch you plane ticket in a blink of an eye.

Your ticket is non-refundable...

And you don't get a refund as far as I am concerned!!!


The Blonde will never be discounted!!!

10.14.2011

Don't Care Any More



The Blonde really does not care anymore!!!

I Wish It Would Rain

Yes..that is Eric Clapton and Phil Collins...



If I were blessed, I would have been married to Phil Collins forever....

And before I loved Phil...I loved Jack Lemmon...

Silly for a 15 year old to love Jack Lemmon; he was so old; but it was something on the inside, behind those eyes...

Phil has that...that something behind those eyes

Something that makes me want to cry and hold them until they stop hurting...

but now...my eyes are not the same....

I don't see anyone's hurt but my own...


The Blonde is still well aware of her fucked up ness!!