I Am Lost

even more so than my cat!!

A lot of things have been lost in the past few weeks. 

People

Fish

A Cat

Love

The only thing I haven't lost is my luggage. Its such a good set of luggage too. 

Guaranteed to pack up a relationship in less than an hour with room to spare for a broken heart.

I don't know what life has in store for me. I am sure calling God a dick didn't help any but lately he hasn't helped much anyway.

Like I say:

 if you want a life done right; you have to do it yourself!

The Blonde is soul searching!!

PS. Sorry I called you a dick, God!! 

Where is Peppy?

My flyer campaign is working. It would have worked better had my family put them up while I was in Dallas. I knew they wouldn't put up posters. Slackers!!

Anyhoo,

the frustration and feeling helpless in Dallas just burst open the other day and I am now home looking feverishly for my little guy.

I don't know if I will find him but at least I feel better that I am doing everything possible to find him.

If you want a job done right, sometimes you just have to do it yourself.

The Blonde will find something!!

I'm not asking

and I am not praying....

I am telling you GOD....

Bring back my cat!!

I don't deserve this.

I am sick and tired of always looking over my shoulder to see what you will do to fuck up my day.

Just when I think things are going well...you throw a right hook and wipe the floor with me.

wHAT THE f DID I EVER DO TO YOU?

I have fucking had it!!

BRING BACK MY CAT!

The Blonde is beginning to think GOD is a dick!!

Oops, My Blonde

My fish was just at the other end of the pond!!

Blonde Moment!

My Fish Is Gone

We bought new fish for the pond and one in particular seemed to be an old soul that I knew. It would come to me every time I went outside and let me pet it.

Today, it was gone.

Vanished.

And I can't help but think what soul came by to revisit me?

And why did it have to leave so suddenly?

I guess nature is that way. And if we are smart enough to view it in its proper form, we get so much out of such an insignificant creature in such little amount of time.

I knew from the beginning that fish would not be with me long. I knew it but still a little bit of shock and sadness runs through me today.

I thought I would have just a bit longer with it.

I hoped it would stay even though deep down it would go soon.

Funny how things are, don't you think?

A brief encounter with a fish leaves an empty spot in my soul and I am still glad I got the chance to love it just a little bit.

I just wish I loved it more in the short time I had.

Its poetic considering the things that have happened around me lately.

Goodbye my sweet fish.

Good night my sweet soul, wherever and whom ever you may be.

I am alright if that's what you were wondering.

The Blonde still remains true to her nature!!