If I had internet when I was young, I would have committed suicide when I was 9

 I did not know that I could kill myself, so I prayed to God every night to take me in my sleep.

I begged.

I pleaded.

I cried every night.

Myself to sleep and hope to die.

and wish I did die and not wake at the tender age of nine

I would not be here today if the internet was at my fingertips and all I had to do was Google how to die.

I would have taken my Mothers pillss and slumber forever on the first try.