How many times can I be lead up a mountain, to be shown everything I want and work so hard to get...
"Here, here is your dream, laid out for you. Try to reach out and grab it."
And just as a reach out to grab it with all my might,
A gust of my reality whips up under my feet and thrusts me back down the mountain.
How many times must i be told by the powers that be...
I can't have it, no matter how hard I try.
When do I break?
When do I say...
Enough is enough!
Am I cursed?
If this life is only a lesson to learn from a past life than I am done.
I don't feel it really should continue.
There is karmic retribution for past sins and than there is just fucking abuse by the Gods.
I am going to keep beating down the doors until I have exhausted everything.
But I do feel its totally acceptable to cash in my lessons and move on to another life within 5 years of this one.
Its a date with destiny...
5 years from now on my birthday...if life keeps handing me raw deals...
I will know I tried my hardest and will have no regrets to carry with me in the next life.
Surviving a life is not a life worth living!!
The BLonde will set her own agenda!